Friday, June 29, 2012
50 lbs lighter!
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
I did it!!!
So, I guess you can tell by the title of the post that I received some good news when I weighed in today. I am happy to say that not only did I lose the lbs I wanted to lose but lost the two lbs as well!! I have now lost a total of 51 lbs since 2/22/12!! That makes me feel GOOD!!
To be able to say that I have lost 51 lbs is to say that I have stuck with the plan and that its working for me. I have never followed a plan this long or lost this much!! My next goal will come once I have lost another 22 lbs!! I will keep you all posted once that happens!! I will post a pic this weekend of me at my 50 lbs mark!
Thanks for reading and take care!!
To be able to say that I have lost 51 lbs is to say that I have stuck with the plan and that its working for me. I have never followed a plan this long or lost this much!! My next goal will come once I have lost another 22 lbs!! I will keep you all posted once that happens!! I will post a pic this weekend of me at my 50 lbs mark!
Thanks for reading and take care!!
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Here we go again!!
Its been a few days since I have posted. The last post was so personal, I wasnt sure if I could get back into the carefree posts that I wrote before then but I am back!! :-) I cant promise I wont get that personal again but not right now.
I mentioned last week that I was close to two goals relating to Weight Watchers and I didnt quite make it!! I hope tomorrow I can post with a different outcome. I am SOOOO close!! Its funny because this is the first time that I have actually had weight loss goals but I find their important. Like someone said, goals are dreams with a deadline, or something to that effect.
If I had to think about ALL of the weight I have to lose, I would probably get overwhelmed and want to quit. Therefore, my small goals keep me focused and motivated and it has worked so far. I cant believe I am less than 2 lbs from having lost 50 lbs in months!!
At tomorrow's WW meeting, we will have an open house and I will be saying a few words about how the program has helped me. I hope I am not super long winded. Sometimes I cant help myself. I am so in the zone right now and everytime I am asked, I just go on and on about how wonderful it is...Wish me luck again!
Thank you for reading and take care!!
I mentioned last week that I was close to two goals relating to Weight Watchers and I didnt quite make it!! I hope tomorrow I can post with a different outcome. I am SOOOO close!! Its funny because this is the first time that I have actually had weight loss goals but I find their important. Like someone said, goals are dreams with a deadline, or something to that effect.
If I had to think about ALL of the weight I have to lose, I would probably get overwhelmed and want to quit. Therefore, my small goals keep me focused and motivated and it has worked so far. I cant believe I am less than 2 lbs from having lost 50 lbs in months!!
At tomorrow's WW meeting, we will have an open house and I will be saying a few words about how the program has helped me. I hope I am not super long winded. Sometimes I cant help myself. I am so in the zone right now and everytime I am asked, I just go on and on about how wonderful it is...Wish me luck again!
Thank you for reading and take care!!
Friday, June 22, 2012
Sandusky's verdict
Ok...I know I just posted less than an hour ago but this verdict has brought up so many feelings in me. When this story first broke, I remember I telling my therapist that I was overwhelmed with different emotions but not really feeling I had a place to express them or even how to express them for that matter. This post may be a little erratic and maybe rambling. It is also going to be very honest and probably very long. I apologize in advance.
When I first about this case, I was one of few people who didn't know who Joe Paterno was how big he was in Penn State. If I didnt know about the infamous, JoePa, I knew even less about Jerry Sandusky. I dont always tune into stories about college sports, however, whenever I hear sexual abuse, I am automatically interested in the story. Reason being, I was raped when I was 7 years old.
My rape is something that some people know about but most dont. Its not something that I broadcast but its also not something hide. When I was 7 years old, I was raped by someone from my neighborhood. He was not someone I had ever met before, just someone who asked for helped and preyed on an innocent child. When I finally told my mother I was raped, she rushed me to the hospital, where I stayed for a week or so. I had a lot of my family come to visit and of course, a lot of law enforcement personnel. I remember not really wanting to talk about it. As much as I was constantly being told that it was not my fault and I did nothing wrong, I felt that it was my fault. I talked to a stranger, when my mother had drilled in my head not to talk to strangers. Then when I was told by a family member, not to discuss my rape with anyone, it sort of cemented the "shame" that I felt. I kept it buried for years until I finally sought therapy 3 1/2 years ago and am now able to talk about it.
I remember how I felt as a 7 year old who just had her innocence shattered by 1 sexual assault. I had a supportive family and thankfully didnt know the person responsible. I felt loved but still felt like something was wrong with me. I was "tarnished" and its a feeling that sometimes haunts me some 25 years after the rape. I could only imagine how some of this man's victims felt. They knew and trusted him and he preyed on them for his own sick pleasure. The fact that it has been proven that people in power were made aware of the abuse and chose to protect the image of the school over the well being of the children sickens me.
I really dont care about JoePa and all that he did for the school of Penn State. I am not saying that I am glad he is dead but I am not overcome with grief either. He is responsible for any victim brutalized after he was informed of the abuse. Hearing countless stories from people who worked with him and confirmed that he knew of most major things happening at the school and also reading the grand jury report, no one will ever convince me that he was innocent in this. He many not have been the actual monster committing the unspeakable acts but he is most certainly responsible for allowing it to continue. He, along with everyone else in power who knew of the abuse, should be held responsible!! If I were being abused and knew that it was being allowed, I am not sure how it would make me feel. Less than human? Worthless?? This is what was done to these kids and who knows how many others that have not come forward.
I guess I am happy with the verdict. At least the victims who had to relive their personal nightmares didnt do it in vain. Hopefully, none of appeals will overturn the verdict. This may sound harsh but I hope he rots in jail and then in hell!! \
Anyways, I've rambled on and can say I feel a little bit better. I still have tumbling emotions and may continue to post...who knows!
Thanks for reading again and take care!
When I first about this case, I was one of few people who didn't know who Joe Paterno was how big he was in Penn State. If I didnt know about the infamous, JoePa, I knew even less about Jerry Sandusky. I dont always tune into stories about college sports, however, whenever I hear sexual abuse, I am automatically interested in the story. Reason being, I was raped when I was 7 years old.
My rape is something that some people know about but most dont. Its not something that I broadcast but its also not something hide. When I was 7 years old, I was raped by someone from my neighborhood. He was not someone I had ever met before, just someone who asked for helped and preyed on an innocent child. When I finally told my mother I was raped, she rushed me to the hospital, where I stayed for a week or so. I had a lot of my family come to visit and of course, a lot of law enforcement personnel. I remember not really wanting to talk about it. As much as I was constantly being told that it was not my fault and I did nothing wrong, I felt that it was my fault. I talked to a stranger, when my mother had drilled in my head not to talk to strangers. Then when I was told by a family member, not to discuss my rape with anyone, it sort of cemented the "shame" that I felt. I kept it buried for years until I finally sought therapy 3 1/2 years ago and am now able to talk about it.
I remember how I felt as a 7 year old who just had her innocence shattered by 1 sexual assault. I had a supportive family and thankfully didnt know the person responsible. I felt loved but still felt like something was wrong with me. I was "tarnished" and its a feeling that sometimes haunts me some 25 years after the rape. I could only imagine how some of this man's victims felt. They knew and trusted him and he preyed on them for his own sick pleasure. The fact that it has been proven that people in power were made aware of the abuse and chose to protect the image of the school over the well being of the children sickens me.
I really dont care about JoePa and all that he did for the school of Penn State. I am not saying that I am glad he is dead but I am not overcome with grief either. He is responsible for any victim brutalized after he was informed of the abuse. Hearing countless stories from people who worked with him and confirmed that he knew of most major things happening at the school and also reading the grand jury report, no one will ever convince me that he was innocent in this. He many not have been the actual monster committing the unspeakable acts but he is most certainly responsible for allowing it to continue. He, along with everyone else in power who knew of the abuse, should be held responsible!! If I were being abused and knew that it was being allowed, I am not sure how it would make me feel. Less than human? Worthless?? This is what was done to these kids and who knows how many others that have not come forward.
I guess I am happy with the verdict. At least the victims who had to relive their personal nightmares didnt do it in vain. Hopefully, none of appeals will overturn the verdict. This may sound harsh but I hope he rots in jail and then in hell!! \
Anyways, I've rambled on and can say I feel a little bit better. I still have tumbling emotions and may continue to post...who knows!
Thanks for reading again and take care!
Diets
Lately, as people have noticed my weight loss, diets have naturally been a topic of conversation. I find myself constantly repeating that I don't feel like I am on a diet. This is a lifestyle change that I have made. I am making every effort to not only change how I look but also to change my relationship with food. Its not about just losing the excess weight that I currently have but once its off, I will have to maintain the loss. The only way I can do this is to eat as I will eat for the rest of my life.
The problem I have with most of the main diets like Jenny Craig, Nutrisystem and even Atkins is that they're unrealistic. With the first 2, from what I understand, the meals are delivered to your home and you're really only heating it up. With the last diet, you're completely giving up a food group. What happens when most people meet their goal weight with those diets and go back to eating regular foods?? They regain what they lost and sometimes gain some extra pounds just for good measure. SURPRISED?!?! You shouldnt be. These diets' success is mainly based on eating "special" foods or in a "different" way then normal. So, when you go back to eating normal foods, your weight skyrockets!! Like a friend told me her fiance said, the weight is like the Jeffersons' theme song, just movin' on up!!
One of the reasons I LOVE Weight Watchers is because I eat regular food. I mainly just changed my portion size and also how I eat my favorite foods. For example, my breakfast this morning was a ham, pepper jack cheese and onion egg white omelette with an english muffin. It was DELICIOUS!! For lunch, I had roasted chicken, rice and veggies. This was also very tasty!! I ate relatively light for the day because I was supposed to go to eat tonight. My plans were cancelled, so I had enough points to eat one of my favorite foods, CHINESE!! :-) In the past, I would have eaten a sausage, egg and cheese for breakfast, maybe McDonald's 20 piece for lunch and also indulged in a high point (HIGH FAT) dinner. Sometimes I may have eaten a dessert. Now I plan what I am going to eat. If I know that I am going to be going out and I make better choices during the day. This way when I am indulging for dinner, I dont feel guilty because I planned for it.
Now, this is not to say that it is easy. As my sister reminded me today, no diet or lifestyle change is easy. They ALL require work and effort; some a little more than others. I measure or weigh everything I eat. I dont just eat what I want anymore. If I am going out to eat, I typically research where I am going and then determine how many points the meals that I am interested are. This can take up to an hour at a time but you know, its worth it. I like the fact that I can normally and even go out and not have to depend on grilled chicken and salad, which while good, can be extemely BORING!!
I am not a spokesperson for Weight Watchers, at least not yet! :-) I advocate people lose weight however works for them, just make sure you think about how you're going to maintain the weight loss. This way you are creating a path for success!!
Thanks for reading and take care!!
The problem I have with most of the main diets like Jenny Craig, Nutrisystem and even Atkins is that they're unrealistic. With the first 2, from what I understand, the meals are delivered to your home and you're really only heating it up. With the last diet, you're completely giving up a food group. What happens when most people meet their goal weight with those diets and go back to eating regular foods?? They regain what they lost and sometimes gain some extra pounds just for good measure. SURPRISED?!?! You shouldnt be. These diets' success is mainly based on eating "special" foods or in a "different" way then normal. So, when you go back to eating normal foods, your weight skyrockets!! Like a friend told me her fiance said, the weight is like the Jeffersons' theme song, just movin' on up!!
One of the reasons I LOVE Weight Watchers is because I eat regular food. I mainly just changed my portion size and also how I eat my favorite foods. For example, my breakfast this morning was a ham, pepper jack cheese and onion egg white omelette with an english muffin. It was DELICIOUS!! For lunch, I had roasted chicken, rice and veggies. This was also very tasty!! I ate relatively light for the day because I was supposed to go to eat tonight. My plans were cancelled, so I had enough points to eat one of my favorite foods, CHINESE!! :-) In the past, I would have eaten a sausage, egg and cheese for breakfast, maybe McDonald's 20 piece for lunch and also indulged in a high point (HIGH FAT) dinner. Sometimes I may have eaten a dessert. Now I plan what I am going to eat. If I know that I am going to be going out and I make better choices during the day. This way when I am indulging for dinner, I dont feel guilty because I planned for it.
Now, this is not to say that it is easy. As my sister reminded me today, no diet or lifestyle change is easy. They ALL require work and effort; some a little more than others. I measure or weigh everything I eat. I dont just eat what I want anymore. If I am going out to eat, I typically research where I am going and then determine how many points the meals that I am interested are. This can take up to an hour at a time but you know, its worth it. I like the fact that I can normally and even go out and not have to depend on grilled chicken and salad, which while good, can be extemely BORING!!
I am not a spokesperson for Weight Watchers, at least not yet! :-) I advocate people lose weight however works for them, just make sure you think about how you're going to maintain the weight loss. This way you are creating a path for success!!
Thanks for reading and take care!!
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
So close....
So... I weighed in today and did not meet any of my small goals!! I actually went up .2 lbs. The funny thing is that I wasn't terribly disappointed. I was more annoyed than anything else! I think I would have felt the same way if I had lost only .2 lbs. I am not discouraged by the lack off a loss. If anything, I am more determined to reach my goal!! Keep the good thoughts coming!! As always, thanks for reading and take care!!
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Inspirational
Since I have restarted posting in this blog, I have received so many wonderful messages of support and encouragement!! It really means a lot that people are rooting for me on my journey and enjoying what they read. Sometimes I question whether or not I should continue blogging because what if people get bored of what I write or are just not interested. But the real reason I blog is for myself. I like expressing what I am going through and enjoy having a forum to do so.
So often in the last 4 months I have heard that I was an inspiration to someone and that leaves me in awe. The fact that people can see how hard I am working pleases me. Sometimes it can be a little scary because I hate disappointing people. However, as long as I continue being true to myself and my path, I will be ok. I am no longer striving to be perfect, as I have mentioned before, just striving to be the best "me!"
The inspiration works both ways. Everytime I am told of someone trying to become healthier, it reminds me why I started and pushes me forward. I feel like I have a personal cheering section and also additional people who can help me on days I need someone to lean on. That feels good!! :-)
In the spirit of needing support and good vibes, I weigh in tomorrow and I am SOOO nervous because I am so close to my two small goals!! I will keep you posted and let you know if I met any of them!! Wish me luck!
As always, thanks for reading and take care!!
So often in the last 4 months I have heard that I was an inspiration to someone and that leaves me in awe. The fact that people can see how hard I am working pleases me. Sometimes it can be a little scary because I hate disappointing people. However, as long as I continue being true to myself and my path, I will be ok. I am no longer striving to be perfect, as I have mentioned before, just striving to be the best "me!"
The inspiration works both ways. Everytime I am told of someone trying to become healthier, it reminds me why I started and pushes me forward. I feel like I have a personal cheering section and also additional people who can help me on days I need someone to lean on. That feels good!! :-)
In the spirit of needing support and good vibes, I weigh in tomorrow and I am SOOO nervous because I am so close to my two small goals!! I will keep you posted and let you know if I met any of them!! Wish me luck!
As always, thanks for reading and take care!!
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