I can't believe the day has finally come...I am finally in Raleigh/Durham!! I am sitting in my little apartment writing my first post and I am READY to start a new healthy way of living. I arrived by 2 and went to sleep almost immediately....I needed a nap...I had a long night of packing and getting ready for my trip. After my nap, I woke up STARVING.... I was scared of what to expect at dinner... well...I had my first dinner already, which wasnt as bland as I anticipated...had chicken parm with whole wheat pasta, spaghetti sauce and green beans with almonds...dessert was a baked apple...which wasnt too bad... The food in itself was not that bad....it could be that I was famished and needed food but I think all in all...it was not bad... After dinner, we had an orientation to let us know what to expect...
As I sat through orientation, I had to think to myself..how did I get here... When I was younger, before the age of 14, I was a little twig...I lived with different people until then and food was always used as a punishment or reward. It was very controlled... When I went away to high school, I had access to all kinds of food at ALL times of the night... and I overindulged...I went from wearing a size 6/8 freshman year to wearing 18/20 senior year. In college, I just added to that weight and graduated college wearing 22/24. That was almost 8 years ago...
In September of 2008, I hit my mental low. I couldnt believe how much I had let myself gain. I had dieted a few years ago and lost 40 lbs but it was all back. I had done another diet and lost almost 20 lbs but those lbs are back as well. I had heard about the structure house (www.structurehouse.com) about 2 -3 years ago but it was a little more money than I was willing to spend.... So I removed it as an option. By September, I realized I needed a change and needed to make an investment in myself. I am fortunate enough not to have any of the ailments and illnesses associated with obesity but my luck will eventually run out.. so..I chose structure house and here I am...
My first day begins tomorrow at 7:45 AM...well a little earlier for me because for some reason, I dont have a pen and there is none in the apt...why wouldnt they provide a pen but expect you to fill out about 4 different sets of forms?? So...I will make my way up and start my journey at approximately 7:25 AM...
I appreciate all the people who have expressed interest and support in what I am doing... I will try to update you as I make progress!!
Stay tuned!!
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Jackie, what an honest and wonderful approach you are taking to your health. I'm so excited for you...and I can't wait to see where your journey brings you :)
ReplyDeleteHi Jackie -- we've never met, but we're facebook friends; I'm Elio's friend Tara. Elio told me you were doing this, and I just wanted to say, as someone who has struggled with weight/body issues and eating disorders since high school, I think it's amazing and courageous that you're doing this for yourself. I stand in solidarity and wish you all the best!
ReplyDeletewe love our jackie and we love that she loves herself - vaya con nuestro amor y orgullo :)
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Great to see you made it safe. I am rooting for you. Teresa
ReplyDeleteMike and I are so proud of you and can't express enough how happy we are that you decided to take this step for yourself. We love you and are here if you need anything! Let me know if you want me to send anything over there, although you have access to whatever you want, so scratch that. Any way's best of luck and a month will fly by!
ReplyDeleteLove Carissa
Jackie - I'm very proud of you. I know that you can do it. You are a determine person. You can achieve to whatever you set your mind on. I'm always here for you.
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Hi Jackie, this is Kara. I am so excited for you and this experience. I am loving your blog so far and I am totally feel everything you are going through. I have struggled with weight since I was 13 years old. I can't wait to hear more about structure house!
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