Support

When I decided to start blogging again on Friday night, I was a little nervous about posting it on Facebook.  The decision to post came with the fear of being judged and ridiculed.  I was so pleased to see the exact opposite.  The number of people who not only took the time to read my blog but also to respond with messages of support and encouragement surprised me.  It made me feel good to be reminded of the love and warmth that surrounds me.

I am not sure who remembers the show, Designing Women.  It was a great show that I used to watch because it came on right before The Golden Girls, which everyone knows is my favorite.  Anyway, there was this one episode where a man asked Mary Jo to his high school reunion because he wanted to feel special for one day.  All of the women ended up going with him and at the end of the episode, he sends them a little box.  Every time the box was opened, there was a round of applause.  That's how I felt every time I read what people commented.  A little round of applause.

Going through any type of journey is not always easy.  There are bumps and obstacles along the way and times where quitting feels like the right thing to do; the only thing to do.  Those are the times where we need to lean on our loved ones, to give us strength, when we can't find our own.

I am restarting this journey again and know that I will face times where I may not want to continue.  When I do, I will look back at my previous post and blogs and read the lovely words.  Hopefully, they will remind me why I restarted the journey and be the gentle push to keep forward.

As always, thanks for reading and take care.

Almost 5 years later..

Well here we are almost 5 years since my last entry.  Unfortunately, in those 5 years, I have put on all the weight I had previously lost.  How did that happen?!?!  I  had been on such a good roll and had come so far and yet I slid back into my old habits.   I've asked myself multiple times how I let myself fall back into those habits.  How did I forget everything I had learned in Weight Watchers?  I had promised myself then that I would never get back to place I started, yet here I am.

The truth is that I gained the weight back for different reasons.  As in everything in life, there is always more than thing or reason for my relapse.  There were a of changes going on in my life at that time and while some of the things were good, it was still very stressful and lets be honest, food can be very comforting.  So here I am starting over, yet again.

I used to feel shame for having started and stopped my journey so many times.  Feeling like I've failed and what's the use of starting over if I were only going to go back to where I started but I am not a failure.  The only time I will have really failed is if I completely give up, which I refuse to do.  Even if it takes me the rest of my life, I will never try getting it right.

Last month, my sister, Brenda, suggested we start Weight Watchers and I begrudgingly agreed.  I really wasn't ready to start again but figured...yes, lets do it.  That first day was damn near impossible.  I went to bed hungry but I did it.  I had one day down and so many more to go.  I didn't stop the plan and didn't give myself an excuse to eat whatever.  I was recommitting to WW.

Here I am a month later, and thankfully I am still on the plan.  This time I am not focusing on the scale.  I have a list of the reasons why I want to start being healthy and hopefully, I can start crossing them off soon.  I've decided to start blogging again and hope it helps me stay focused.  I am not going to promise to write on a regular basis but more as I feel inspired.

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Thanks for coming on the journey with me.  Thank you for reading and take care!! 😉😉