The day has come!! I am finally here!!

I can't believe the day has finally come...I am finally in Raleigh/Durham!! I am sitting in my little apartment writing my first post and I am READY to start a new healthy way of living. I arrived by 2 and went to sleep almost immediately....I needed a nap...I had a long night of packing and getting ready for my trip. After my nap, I woke up STARVING.... I was scared of what to expect at dinner... well...I had my first dinner already, which wasnt as bland as I anticipated...had chicken parm with whole wheat pasta, spaghetti sauce and green beans with almonds...dessert was a baked apple...which wasnt too bad... The food in itself was not that bad....it could be that I was famished and needed food but I think all in all...it was not bad... After dinner, we had an orientation to let us know what to expect...

As I sat through orientation, I had to think to myself..how did I get here... When I was younger, before the age of 14, I was a little twig...I lived with different people until then and food was always used as a punishment or reward. It was very controlled... When I went away to high school, I had access to all kinds of food at ALL times of the night... and I overindulged...I went from wearing a size 6/8 freshman year to wearing 18/20 senior year. In college, I just added to that weight and graduated college wearing 22/24. That was almost 8 years ago...

In September of 2008, I hit my mental low. I couldnt believe how much I had let myself gain. I had dieted a few years ago and lost 40 lbs but it was all back. I had done another diet and lost almost 20 lbs but those lbs are back as well. I had heard about the structure house (www.structurehouse.com) about 2 -3 years ago but it was a little more money than I was willing to spend.... So I removed it as an option. By September, I realized I needed a change and needed to make an investment in myself. I am fortunate enough not to have any of the ailments and illnesses associated with obesity but my luck will eventually run out.. so..I chose structure house and here I am...

My first day begins tomorrow at 7:45 AM...well a little earlier for me because for some reason, I dont have a pen and there is none in the apt...why wouldnt they provide a pen but expect you to fill out about 4 different sets of forms?? So...I will make my way up and start my journey at approximately 7:25 AM...

I appreciate all the people who have expressed interest and support in what I am doing... I will try to update you as I make progress!!

Stay tuned!!