Almost time to go home!

Well..I am almost at the end of my stay here and I am very excited to be going home. I have learned so much here; not only about food and diet but also about myself. I am not sure many people know this about me but that have been times that I have wanted to disappear and just go into a black hole somewhere for about 6 months. I know this is a long time but that was usually when I was at my lowest. So..coming here was my way of disappearing for 4 weeks. I came all alone and was able to embark on my journey... I definitely feel as if I am stronger now and can conquer this weight issue. Ive thought a lot about my weight while here and I realized that I have been heavy my entire adult life and have battled weight issues this entire time. However, I also now know that its not just an issue about food or even overindulging in food. There are so much other factors involved with overeating and the abuse of food, especially when food is viewed as a reward. Coming to Structure House has helped me open my eyes to issues or factors I had been ignoring. Because I am seeing them now, I feel I can address them. In addressing them, I feel I will be able to adhere to my new food plan..

I was talking to the front desk, Jen and Juan, and I was talking about my excitement regarding home and they said the nicest thing. Juan said that I was a delight and they would miss me. Jen said that there are people that they see and fear about their success at home but I am one of those people who she knows will do well at home. That felt good to hear because that is how I feel. So many people have told me that they believe in me. For the first time in a long time, I believe in me. I think that I may have finally turned the corner and am ready to walk down a new street. The path ahead of me is one that will be difficult at times and I know that I will want to quit but I wont. I intend to use the next few days here to continue to soak up as much information as I can. After all, who knows when I will have the opportunity to return!

As always, thanks for reading and take care!