When the scale goes up instead of down!

Every Wednesday, I weigh in at my Weight Watchers at work meeting.  That is not my first weigh in of the day though.  Before I go to that meeting, before I even leave my house, I weigh myself on my scale at home.  It kind of prepares me for what I am going to face when I get to work.  The last time I weighed myself was two weeks ago.  It had shown a gain of 1 lb.  I had not been as diligent as I could be, so I accepted this.  Over the last two weeks, I have been off and on my points.  I went off when I went to the Big E and then restarted again.  I also went off my points last weekend when  I went to wedding but then, once again I restarted on Monday.  I assumed because I had been on more than off my points, I would see a loss this week when I stepped on the scale but instead I had gained another lb, which means that I am up a total of 2 lbs!!  I was soo annoyed when I saw that.  I definitely don't want to go back to gaining weight or even maintaining, I want to LOSE the weight. 

I was commiserating with a good friend of mine and told her I was not speaking to the scale this week because I had gained.  We joked about how hard it was to lose weight and how frustrating the process could be.   She suggested that I write about how easy it is to gain weight but how hard it is to lose it.  So I thought about it and decided...ok...I will!

Anyone who has struggled with weight can agree that taking off the excess pounds can often feel like a mystery or just a down and dirty battle.  We have to control impulses and desires and eat sensibly and move a little more.  We have to give up what we want for what we need.  We need to eat to live.  Our body needs the fuel that we supply it by eating.  However, what we need to eat versus what we want to eat are sometimes polar opposites!!   This is one reason I feel that its easier to gain then to lose weight.  To gain weight, you get to eat what you want!  You want a cheeseburger from Five Guys, why not!  How about some ice cream from Coldstone Creamery, sure!!  Now you want a cupcake from Crumbs, go for it!!  When we tell ourselves YES to everything we want to eat and not look at the consequence of eating it ALL the time, the weight comes on.   Oftentimes, we say the weight creeps on but I call BS on that!

Weight does not creep on.  We are in DENIAL about seeing the changes in our weight or the changes in how our clothes fit.  I know I rationalized about my clothes not fitting for months before I realized that I had simply gone up 1 size in clothing!!  When I look back at how I ate, there's no big mystery as to why I had gone up, I was eating what I want and when I wanted it!! Now that I am on Weight Watchers, I still slip into those old habits.  I could say that I am shocked to see the weight go up but the truth is, I know in my heart of hearts that I have not been as diligent with everything as I should be.  After losing 60 lbs, I may have gotten a little ahead of myself.  Truth is I have a LONG way to go!!  The only way I am going to get there is by holding myself accountable for what I eat and how much activity I am getting.  It may be a lot more fun to eat what I want but its a lot more rewarding to eat what I need and see the results of my hard work!!

As always, thanks for reading and take care!!